Tuesday, July 12, 2011

Should Have Been Five

Dog Dad is taking control of today’s post.

Today would have been Deacon’s fifth barkday, a happy day. Instead I am missing my “silly boy.” I can not say  often enough, how much Essex and I appreciate things that people and cyber-paw pals have said and done. We received over 80 blog visitors sympathizing with us and ten cards. Dog Dad talked on the phone with Gomer’s Mom from cyber paw space, with Lil from Holmhaven, family, friends and dog park pals. All of have immensely helped ease our sadness.
Ashes, some fur, his collar and tags
Thanks for the cards
However, not enough time has passed for this wound to heal.  There is still sorrow from passage of my Great Collie Ambassador. Since Deacon crossed, there have been about a dozen bridge crossings by paw-pals we met during life’s journey or in cyber-paw space.  I was asked, why get another dog if it pains me to loose a one. I utter the refrain of dog lovers through the ages: “The only thing worse than losing a dog is to not have one in my life.” I feel Will Rogers was right when he said “If there are no dogs in Heaven, then when I die I want to go where they went..”

Forgive me, but at this moment I miss my Deacon, even though Essex is comforting me and I am looking forward to the arrival of Sherman.   It doesn't seem right that all I have is some fur, a collar and his ashes.  I wish you were here Deacon, wish you were here.

Dog Dad

Forgot to add these two pawtographs to this post.  My sisters and brother got the stone and memorial picture frame for me. 
Picture Frame with Rainbow Bridge Poem

Memorial Stone for my Silly Boy

14 comments:

Boondocks and The Love Shack Pack said...

Our mom lost her best dog friend several years ago. Even though she has the seven of us, she still mourns Rhett. They had a special relationship. Mom says hold on to your memories and she understands your feelings. Even the dog that lives the longest doesn't live hardly long enough.

AROOOF!
Boondocks and The Love Shack Pack

Bailey Be Good! said...

Sending lotsa puppy prayers and hugs for you!!

Big woofs for a happy Tuesday. :)

~Bailey (Yep, I'm a girl!)

Dawn said...

Oh Dog Dad, I wish he were there too. He was such a goofy guy, so loving. It just isn't fair. At all. Hugs to you.

Kess And Her Mama said...

He is still in your heart....you won't forget Deacon but over time, I hope the pain of the loss will be less and you will have happy memories of the days he was with you.

Shikota said...

Way too young - my heart goes out to you :(

Bailey said...

Dogs are like kids one does not replace another, each is an individual relationship. As for getting another one, it was our motivation for having two. I couldn't imagine being alone without one.

Molly, Taffy, Monty and Winnie said...

Big {{{{ }}}} from all of us.

Molly, Taffy, Monty and Winnie

Mack said...

Dog Dad,
Mom says she knows all too well how you are feeling about now and sends lots of love and I send lots of sugars.
Your pal,
Mack

Dianne SS said...

A more sad day for you. Deacon went too soon, but no matter how many years we have with our dear dogs, it's always too soon when they go. If only they could live their lives right along side us and we could go together. Happy Birthday Deacon.
Dianne and Duffy

Jan's Funny Farm said...

Of course you miss your Deacon even though Essex is comforting you and you're looking forward to the future. We all understand that it's no reflection on Essex or the coming pup. It's just you miss Deacon. Purrs and wags.

Jake of Florida said...

Those emotions are so raw -- they brought tears to my eyes.I so wish our cherished companions could stay with us longer. And every one is so special, so different, they each carve their own spaces in our heart, leaving gaping holes when they leave us.

But Sherman will soon carve his own space and, though you'll still grieve for Deacon, you and Essex will be able to laugh at the puppy's antics and find joy again!

Joan

Ludo van Doggy said...

This makes us feel very sad. We don't think the pain ever goes away and we can never understand why some leave us too soon. We will be thinking of you and Essex and looking forward to Sherman. Deacon has sent him to try and patch up your heart a bit.

Jake of Florida said...

Wowser -- you know INTERNATIONAL SECRETS!!!

The key is in Mount Vernon????

Shall we check it out???

Remember, we have two detective look-alikes, Inspecteur Jacques May Gray and Inspecteur Justin Herkimer Clues Oh?

Stick with us, sweet lady!

Wirey woofs,

Jake and Just Harry

Moondance Huskies said...

Hi Dog Dad,
Our Mom has lost a lot of dogs since she began dogsledding in 1992. People have asked her how she keeps going and she says that "if I lose one, that means there is another one out there who needs me". She also agrees totally with you that she cannot imagine life without dogs. Sorry we missed chat on Sunday....my Misty kitten had a bad reaction to flea medicine and mom was up all night caring for her.
Know that Deacon is watching over you and he was very lucky to have you as his Dad.
Hugs & Howls,
Skye and mom Joan